Girlfriend in a coma, I knowI know - its serious Girlfriend in a coma, I knowI know - its really serious There were times when I could have murdered her (but you know, I would hate anything to happen to her) No, I dont want to see her Do you really think she'll pull through ? Do you really think she'll pull through? Do ... Girlfriend in a coma, I know I know - its serious My, my, my, my, my, my baby, goodbye There were times when I could have strangled her (but you know, I would hate anything to happen to her)Would you pleaseLet me see her? Do you really thinkShell pull through ? Do you really thinkShell pull through ? Do ... Let me whisper my last goodbyes, I know - its serious
So... I get to have yet another back surgery. I go to a new Orthopedist today for my surgical consult. It all started when I noticed a couple months ago that my right leg was feeling numb. The numbness never went away, and in fact just seemed to get down right worse. Fffuuuucckk. So... this picture above is some of what is wrong with me back. My L3 and L4 are herniated. Not just L4. So that means that they get to take out 2 discs this time and then fuse my spine with a titanium ROD.
So, yesterday as I was trying to manage all things house-wise and the kids, I sat down briefly to the computer for a little break. Up skulks Willow in her attempt to get my attention and thus wake the baby, 10 mins into her morning nap. Kicking the computer chair. Whining loudly. Making sounds that I had never heard her make before. - Damn near driving me insane, she says " YOU'RE IRRITATING ME!!!" "Why, Willow? What have I done to irritate you so badly?" "YOU'RE NOT LISTENING TO ME!" "What were you trying to tell me?" "THAT YOU'RE IRRITATING ME AND I'M BEING INSANE NOW!" It's moments like these that one must reflect on what one says as a parent in times of annoyance. (deep breath, Mommy.) I remind myself. "Willow. I know you hear Mommy say things like "I'm so irritated. and Please STOP annoying me!!!" But, those are not nice things to say to someone... Can we try to NOT say these things to each other anymore?" "Yeah." "I'm sorry that I've told you that you irritate me sometimes, Willow." "I'm sorry that you irritate me sometimes too, Mommy."